Introduction -- T-shirt swim club -- 'Get in my belly' -- I was a teenage projectile -- High School -- No, but... --- This ain't gonna work out, and neither am I -- Regarding the heart attack I thought I was having -- Down and out in the big and tall -- Want to lose weight? Ask a fat person -- Eat less, eat better, work out -- Maintenance phase -- Cheat days -- Late late weight weight -- Body positivity -- What now? Is the joke on us? -- Media gains from fat shames -- The beacon of hope for fat adolescents -- Acceptance through identity development -- Excelling when you are xxling -- But first, love yourself -- Weighing the balue of a doctor visit -- Aspirations can hinder inspiration -- Diets fail, not people -- It's not so simple -- To live happily ever after the weight loss -- More like defeat days -- The eyes of the beholder -- Acknowledgments

"Part memoir, part support group, comedian Ian Karmel with help from his sister Alisa, a clinical psychologist, opens up about the daily humiliations of being fat and traces the way that fat-gaining it, losing it, worrying about it, trying to hide it-dictates the way so many of us live"--