Prologue: My second life -- Part I: Before the Monsoon. We called her mommy -- It was only in the family -- Making my mother cry -- Channeling rage -- Zig when they zag -- Dividing the world -- Only in Africa -- One way to be born, a thousand ways to die -- Searching for the perfect woman -- The Sarajevo of the mind -- At two wars -- The lovers -- Part II: After the monsoon. The middle finger of God -- My brain, a user's guide -- I forget the name of this chapter: on memory -- This is not a joke? -- The meaning of life (is more than forty-two) -- Solitary confinement -- My last war -- Photo gallery -- Acknowledgments

In 2019, a Pulitzer Prize-winning war correspondent who reported in over 150 countries, many in violent upheaval, was diagnosed with a fatal brain tumor, which gave him the strength to face more personal conflicts, in this unforgettable final dispatch that reveals how facing the unknown can change our relationship to the world around us