Chesbury Hospital -- My friend -- The letter -- New school -- Mum and Dad -- Swearing in church -- Most apologetic girl -- Hambledon -- Running from words -- Stumbling -- Special needs department -- Coming home -- Doctor, doctor -- Pills, pills, pills -- Driving -- Those who love me -- Thailand -- Dublin -- It is my fault -- Mental ward -- Harley Street -- Urine test -- Loser, friend -- Skating -- Ashleaves -- Nursery -- Journalism -- Rocky -- The truth

As a child, Lily knew she was bad. By the age of 13, she had killed someone with a thought, spread untold disease, and spied on her friends. Only by performing a series of secret routines could she correct her wrongdoing. But it was never enough. She had a severe case of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and it ruled her life. A startling true story