Introduction: people have called me an educator, an advocate and an influencer -- What we know for sure about autism is very little -- A happy kid -- I miss mommy and daddy -- The back right corner of the class -- Grape juice box -- Deeper meaning -- Maybe we're twin flames -- This isn't normal -- The end of the beginning -- Aftermath -- Two steps forward -- My heart is broken and so is my brain -- Now I have opinions -- It's okay that things are perfect -- The eat pray love stage

""For far too long, I was told I was just like everyone else. All my struggles and feelings were supposedly universal, and the real difference was that I was just a weak, manipulative, selfish, emotional baby. I had to toughen up. But as much as everyone tried to convince me, I knew it couldn't be true. Living just seemed so much harder for me than everyone else. Whilst the people around me seemed to have no problem being calm and happy, I had panic attacks multiple times a day, where my hyperventilating made my legs numb and sometimes I lost consciousness. I cried almost every day from stress, frustration, exhaustion, or all three at once. This wasn't okay. This wasn't normal. This wasn't functioning. And it certainly wasn't fine." Paige Layle was normal. She lived in the countryside with her mom, dad, and brother Graham. She went to school, hung out with friends, and all the while everything seemed so much harder than it needed to be. A break in routine threw off the whole day. If her teacher couldn't answer "why" in class, she dissolved into tears, unable to articulate her own confusion or explain her lack of control. But Paige was normal. She smiled in photos, picked her feet up when her mom needed to vacuum instead of fleeing the room, and received high grades. She was popular and well-liked. And until she had a full mental breakdown, no one believed her when she claimed that she was not okay. In "But Everyone Feels This Way," Paige Layle shares her story as an autistic woman diagnosed late. Women are frequently diagnosed with autism much later than men-in their late teens or early twenties. Armed with the phrase "Autism Spectrum Disorder" (ASD), Paige set out to learn how to live her authentic, autistic life. She challenges stigmas, taboos, and stereotypes so that everyone can see themselves. Along the way, her online activism has spread awareness, acceptance, and self-recognition in millions of others"--