I wasn't drunk until I was -- I have a hole -- I was a consolation prize -- I wanted to be better -- I needed a goddamn break -- I was something resembling happy -- I failed at everything but sleeping -- I fell into the drums -- I'm killing myself because I can't get my shit together -- I planned Bob's funeral -- I quit drinking for a week -- I didn't have to go that far -- I met someone -- I wished I had a different story -- I refused to stop believing love was magic -- I went to an ashram -- I waited - I don't buy wine much -- I smile hello -- Reading Group Guide -- A conversation with the author

When Loose Girl author Kerry Cohen reached her early 40s, she realized she had a drinking problem. Yes, she could get up on time, bring her kids to school, make dinner, chat with friends, and all around have a normal day, but, throughout it all, Kerry was waiting for her five o'clock glass of wine. Maybe two glasses. Maybe a bottle. Just enough to blur the edges of her life that had become a monotony of vacuuming, carpooling, and disagreements with her husband. Kerry had replaced one addiction with another, instead of seeking sex she was seeking Merlot. Instead of intimacy, she craved the fuzziness of a nice buzz. What she also realized was: she wasn't the only one. LUSH is a gripping memoir that examines Kerry's struggle with alcohol, a struggle that a rising number of middle-aged women are facing today as alcohol dependency amongst females drastically increases. A wonderfully poignant and relatable follow up to her memoir Loose Girl, LUSH follows Kerry as she attempts to rediscover the awe in her life, leaving past mistakes, regrets, and the bottle behind